Oct 31 LID anniversary and Halloween

Today, 4 years ago was my log-in date to China. My LID. It was a very special day then, and it is just as special now!! For all those who are still waiting... please know I send up prayers for you and your families!!!

Happiest of Halloweens to all!!!

Peace.

Halloween Week

Lil M's Halloween party at school (daycare) was today. They are allowed to wear orange or something 'halloween', but not a costume. So, I thought I'd give the Bengals jersey one more go!!! AND IT FIT! ;-) Of course, it's a snad short... but I did put a black turtle neck under it to keep her a bit warmer anyway. It still looked darn cute!! :)






An added bonus pic - this is from last October at a Bengal's game (notice the same jersey). I'm shocked now that it fit at all!! LOL
Peace.

Single Again

Well, apparently Scott has decided to move on. I wasn't going to talk about it here or anywhere for that matter, but since he's removed me (or himself) from FB and doesn't seem to want to have any contact with me, I'm guessing it doesn't matter much what I say anywhere.

So, there you have it. I'm single again. I thought somehow that 2 years with someone would mean something and that we'd work through any issues we had, but clearly I was wrong. And, on top of it... he's just gone.

I realize I'm not technically alone because I do have Lil M, but I did love him... even if we were having difficulties. And, now I'm alone again. Again. Well, just me and Mia, anyway. Which, is probably for the best.

And what I've been suspecting for awhile now is that he didn't really love me. I believe he was here out of convenience and that wore off. And he likes to be alone (or so he has told me). What is even worse, is that I do know he cared for Lil M. But, clearly, that doesn't mean anything either.

If I was a cold-hearted bitch, I would have dumped his ass when he told me he would not, in no uncertain terms, raise a black child. (as a single adoptive parent, there are only a limited amount of choices, and Ethiopia is one of them, but he vehemently objected. he also objected to having a baby. oh, and no boys.)

But I didn't. Maybe he realized that Lil M *is* actually Asian and *is* different from himself and couldn't bear to take her in public either. Who knows.

Or. He just wasn't that into me.

You have no idea how upset I am right now. This is just ridiculous.

Peace.

New bets...

Ok, so no one actually bet on how long Lil M would stay dry... last night was not a good night for her. She woke up really wet. Oh well.. onto a new day and we'll see how she does tonight! She might be asking for a pull-up tonight. LOL.

Looks like I might get a placement moderately soon with my foster/adoption agency. I will likely take a foster situation first, and see how that goes. I am still in the family-building stage, so I am still looking to adopt number 2, but with this agency we'll see how it goes.

Peace.

Bets on dryness

Anyone wanna take some bets on how many nights (starting tonight) Lil M can go without being wet in the morning? Or shall I say... dry nights?!

Her longest that I've officially counted was 3 out of 4... and I'm going to count all this week.... might even have to get her something special if she can go more than 4 days straight!

I have Meow and Monkey sitting here with me... Lil M is sleeping... I get to be the keeper tonight of her favorite animals. I need them. It's been a long day.

Peace.

Weekend update

I made some quick type bread tonight, from scratch, as they say. It turned out really well, even though I modified the recipe (on purpose). I think next time I might add a smidge less sugar. Or use brown sugar instead or something... but other than that... it turned out well and I'm glad to be baking again. :)

Lil M had 3 nights of dryness, and then last night she wasn't. Oh well. I had a feeling it wouldn't keep forever! LOL. Let's see how she does tonight. I'm happy she can go 3 nights in a row... and hopefully we can up that this week or soon, at least.

I didn't really do the chores that I should have done today... but there is always tomorrow. We'll likely run to the store and then I need to get some other things done around here. It if doesn't rain, I'll mow the yard. Oh boy.

Peace.

Overnight PT

So, Lil M has taken to not wearing a pull-up this week overnights... she had 2 out of 3 dry nights, and I'm praying tonight'll be a 3rd. :) *crossing fingers* She seems fairly ready for this new endeavor. As you can imagine, Mommy is quite pleased. :) Well, except for when she has accidents. But she is learning!

Actually, this Mommy is quite pleased when it comes to most-every-single-thing-having-to-do-with-Lil-M!! ;-) yep, had to put that in there.

So, I got part of my sewing room cleaned out a little bit today. Will go buy some bins tomorrow and organize my fabric...then figure out where to store it! :D Actually, it feels good to finally do something with it again, even it if is just re-organizing it so far! I found some fun stuff that I think I could do great things with for Christmas... if I could just get off my lazy butt to sew anything. ;-)

I fell down the stairs last night, didn't hurt myself too bad, but I did pull a muscle in my arm it seems and my left shoulder is a bit out of whack. Nothing a little ibuprofen doesn't help.

Update on possible placement, I'm waiting to hear if the State will even let me foster the boy because I don't have my medically fragile training yet. Might hear tomorrow. Or might not. What is funny about this (not so haha) is that I am not a patient person. Unless, it comes to big ticket things like... waiting for adoption or children. Go figure. ;-) Who'da thunk it?!

Peace.

Quilting and fabric

I have TOO Much fabric. I'll just tell ya now, I have enough fabric for probably 10 women. No joke. In order for me to get this room ready for any child, let alone doing respite, I've GOT to get this fabric under control... at least put away in bins. So, my goal today is to get some bins and start moving it. I'm also going to have Sis put some of it on eBay, because there are certain pieces I'm sure I won't use. Not that any of it is bad. It's just that I really just have too much. I can't hardly get in there and sew.... wait, that's probably why I haven't gotten in there to sew!! So, wish me luck. :)

I'd love to get in that room, or in my sewing spot (wherever that ends up) and make some new pillows and some lap quilts for Christmas. So, sort, sort, sort I must!!

Still haven't made a firm decision about the little boy. I'm scared of the diabetes... I'm going to try to call my agency today and talk to them about it more. But, regardless, if there is to ever be a number 2, there has to be room made.

**I have thought today, though, that even though the Diabetes scares me, I think it is just the reality of a 2nd right now that makes me nervous. I think that would be any child. :) So, I'm still waiting to hopefully meet him and see if it is a good match. I'm thinking that if his attitude isn't super difficult then it wouldn't be as bad as I've been letting myself think it might be. You know what I mean? Lil M has a very easy-going personality... I think that having a child with a super-difficult personality would be more of a challenge for ME than having to help him with his food/medical issues. Of course, I could be wrong.

Peace.

Respite

I might have the opportunity to take a young boy for respite care this weekend or next. Actually, they've asked me to consider fostering him, but I'm not sure yet... he has type I diabetes (juvenile, inherited type) and I'm a little scared of that responsibility. However, he is old enough to give himself his own shots and mostly needs supervision in that area.

Sis is concerned I might take on too much. She says, I can never do anything small... always has to be big... but I didn't pick this one, they picked me. Regardless, she is right and I do not want to get into a situation where I'm too overwhelmed. But I am seriously considering the respite at least and see if it would even be something I could handle. Plus, they have to accept me, too, at the state level because of his medical condition. So, might not work out after all.

Any thoughts or prayers are welcome.

So, how does this work for me? Well, in everything, I take it up in prayer... simply put, I talk to God about it. I do have a few trusted friends/relatives that also help, but I'm a big prayer gal. With prayer, the thing you must always remember... it is God's time and you need to actually listen after you've asked the question. Please go check out the other ideas here.

Peace.

Pumpkin Patch

Today we went to a pumpkin patch in NKY. The MK's went with us and we had fun picking out little pumpkins and a 'big huge pumpkin'...lol

Lil M wore her cute little poncho and got to feed the animals 'popcorn' (she calls all corn popcorn!!)....


Peace.

Apology

I need to put out an apology to my family from last night. I vented some things on here that really hurt their feelings and that was not my intent. I took the post down and I hope they can forgive me my harsh words. I also send the one person who responded to the post an apology in an email...

Anyway, family is hugely important to me, and I will try to communicate my feelings better in the future.

As for us, we're going to the pumpkin patch now, I think...

Peace.

Not much goin' on

This week has been fairly uneventful... well, work is busier for me and I haven't gotten enough house work done...

Let's see, the washing machine doesn't seem to be agitating like it should on the spin cycle, and to have it looked at a 2nd time this year seems stupid (it's $129 just for them to come out, parts not included) and I think it might be time to look at getting a new one. Oh boy.

Oh, and it seems like there might be some fleas in the family room. :( So, I've put more Frontline on the dogs and put some flea stuff on the carpet twice now. Looks, like I might have to do more... ugh.

Yep, it's that fun! Ha.

This weekend is my high school reunion weekend. Tomorrow is supposed to be a football game, but it looks like it is going to rain. So, we might not go. Then, Saturday my Dad is going to watch Lil M and Nephew and Sis and I are going to go to the official reunion. Of course, I'll post pics if I take any! LOL

Peace.

I am THAT Mom

Not to steal the blog title from my fellow blogger... but "I" am THAT Mom....

You know the one...

I want to know if my daughter took a nap.
I want to know what she had for lunch.
I want to know what she did during the day (when she isn't with me).
I do care about how much sugar and junk she's eaten.
I do expect her to sit still and behave when necessary.
I do expect her to eat dinner and sit at the table.
I do expect her to follow some simple, basic rules.

The first two items on my list are a challenge every single day with the daycare. You'd think that after over 2 years of going there they'd ALL know that *I* want to know these things every.single.day. But no. I still go some days and no one can tell me if Lil M had a nap.

Now, you're saying... why not just ask her? Well, she doesn't always tell me the correct answer. I don't think she's trying to lie to me, but she DOES know that Mommy wants to know and it will make Mommy happy if she did take a nap. So, of course, she's going to say yes! LOL.

Peace.