Monday, September 29, 2008

Line Dry

Lest you think I'm truly nuts... I've been doing a lot more line drying of our clothes these past few months. It's been great. Takes me back to when I was a kid. The clothes smell great. :) I also cloth diaper part-time. What does that mean?

Well, before Lil M came home, I bought a bunch of these new-fangled cloth diapers that have buttons and have a different type of outside layer that keeps them from leaking. I've had really great success with them, actually, and I don't feel like I'm putting as much into landfills as we would be otherwise (obviously). Yes, I do a little bit more laundry, but not too much. Maybe it's 6 one have dozen the other... but... it makes me feel better.

This mommyhood thing has been quite an adventure so far... Lil M used the potty for the first time ever last night. It was cool. It took awhile, and I don't think she's got the idea quite yet. We're going to take it slow, like everything else we've done, but we're trying.

So, have you ever thought of "going green"? And what does that mean to you? I do recycle what I can. But the other stuff's been kind of newer to me and fun. Fun because I made the informed choice myself, it wasn't forced on me. I should take a pic of the clothes on the line, so Lil M can see how crazy her mommy was when she was little!! LOL


Sunday, September 28, 2008

Thoughts... ramblings...

So, for the past year and a half (actually, year and 8 months), my sister has been going through an awful time with her soon-to-be-ex... It started February 2007 with his 2nd DUI/OVI charge, and will *hopefully* end this Thursday. Finally. That's hoping too much, probably, 'cause it never seems to end.

It's been rough on all of us. Sis, of course, has had it the worst. Her WHOLE life has changed. New house. Not getting to see her son... trying to prove BIL is an absolute, complete liar.... the list goes on.

For me, well, I've been right there in the thick of it. Where else would I be? Well, I guess I never meant to be, but I'm fairly protective of sis. As most know, I'm a twin. I have this overwhelming sense of loyalty to her. Always have. So, this break-up is hard for us all, 'cause it was my family too. We spend days, weeks and months together, all of us. They were my life. Which is kind of sad.... but true. Then comes the 2nd DUI, her moving, the divorce papers... and my new daughter and life. Life has been very stressful.... the good and the bad. I would spend every last dime I have to get Chase back for Mindy. And I practically have. There is no guilt implied or any desire to have a pat on the back. It is just fact. And now that it is almost over... well, the bit "D" part... I'm relieved, to say the least (no offense to Sis in any way).

But here is the thing. there's been a lot of stress here too. Work, mainly. Well, solely even. Never have I had such a tough time with people I work with. It is so odd. I realize I've changed over the past 2 years... especially since Lil M came home. My priorities are different. I don't take as much crap from people. I take more time for myself. I guess I should have realized that might change how I perceive others and how they perceive me. So, time for that realization to sink in and to move on...

Back to where I know I need to be. Regain my sanity. Stop trying to save the world, and start focusing on my own family. Not that I won't still do everything I can for Sis. I will. But part of me has to let go and let her get her feet again, too. God is in control. God has gotten us this far. Right? YES. And so it goes...

I actually thought about running today. Like actually putting on some shoes and going for a run. What a nice thought. I have become the complete couch potato in the past year. It is disgusting. My hip has been bothering me, and it still does from time to time but not nearly as bad as it did. I've been quilting. I finished 2 quilts last week. And even cut out some fabric for a new one! Wow. I haven't done that in well over a year now. I mean, I've finished a couple small pieces, but this was 2 larger ones, and starting something new. There IS hope. :D

I'm trying to get my feet under me, as well. My life is so vastly different from what it was 2 years ago. That is NOT a complaint in the least. Some of it is amazing. Some of it is downright stressful. But you know, life is always stressful. And this time I've let it get to me more than some of the others. Good reason... but...

I'm trying to get my feet under me. Pray that I do soon. (and a new job). Pray that Sis' divorce trial goes well Thursday, too, please.

God is good.


Thursday, September 25, 2008

Out for a bit

So, we lost power for a few days last week due to a freak wind storm. Yes, that's right. A wind storm. The whole area was out, and it was just odd. Everyone seemed to band together to help each other in the time of need, and it turned out just fine. No damage to the house or anything. Thank God. I did lose the table outside, but that is minor.

Last night, Scott and I went to see Carrie Underwood and Little Big Town. That was a wonderful show! It was the first time I've had a friend come stay with Lil M for an evening... besides one time having Ellen come stay with her while I went to get my hair done... My friend Heather came over and she and Lil M played for a bit before she went to bed. The crazy thing was that Lil M cried when I left. She doesn't usually do that when we go to daycare (only once, actually)... these things I do remember! LOL. It turned out just fine. It's a good sign she didn't want me to leave. I always watch for those "attachment" things, you know. :)

Things have been a bit up and down here, work-wise. I could use some prayers. I don't really want to talk about it now, but let's just say I need something better. Quickly.

Lil M is amazing, as usual. I did finally get back to some quilting, and finished two projects this week that I hadn't worked on for many a month. Quite refreshing, actually.

Anyway, peace to all.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008


So, my friend H and i took Lil M to get chinese food for dinner tonight. H is a sweetie. We decided to go shoe shopping for Mia. :) I wanted to get her some black patent leather for the winter. We went to Target and got some for $7.99!! woot! After that, we walked past the lady's undergarment section... H was telling us how the cute bras are never for larger busted (boobed) women. Well... first embarassing Mommy moment... Lil M picked up on the "boob" word... she kept point to bras and saying "boob, boob, boob"! ROFL It was hysterical. I was so pleased that we weren't around a lot of people... 'cause it made me and H laugh pretty hard. too cute. ;-)

My little goose. Such a cutie.

I have a little work situation... ugh, will it ever end... can i just throw out a request for "work prayers"... pray pray pray.

Love to all.