Thoughts

I am still not sleeping well. Too much on my mind and I wanted to get up and write about it last night, but didn't. Now, I am not sure what all I wanted to say. I'm still thinking a lot about work and about how it has affected my life in the past year. I know I just became a new Mom, too, and so that has affected me some, but I am very happy about that part.

The thing is that I waited for so long for her to get here. I realized last night (not for the first time) that I put my life on hold last year and the beginning of this year because of this. I'm ready to get back to my life, I'm just not sure what that means now. I really miss running the races I used to do, so that is part of it. I need to figure out how I can fit some of that in. I need to figure out how to fit quilting in, too.

So, how do I get back to it? More later.

Peace.

Not sleeping well

Go figure, it's me that's not been sleeping well this week. Little M hasn't been sleeping very well at daycare, and I'm not sleeping very well at night. We're a pair!! I'm hoping it'll get better now that work isn't *quite* as stressful as it has been for the past year.

Speaking of which, I realized last night...while lying wide awake...that the impact my old boss had on me was more than just professional. I have lost a lot of confidence, in general, because of all his of awfulness. I am hoping I can get some of my confidence back soon. I feel like I've been beaten down and it's almost like a bad breakup. How pathetic is that? He was just my boss!!!! Ugh.

I'm going to try to get some rest tonight. I really need it. I am anxious to get more pics uploaded soon, too, so please bear with me!

Peace.

Survivor

Apparently, there is a Survivor China this year. I might just have to watch it. And I don't watch that show normally. I wonder how good it will be this year.

I don't have a whole lot to write about tonight, and should try to get some sleep. Little M was a bit cranky tonight. She went to sleep a little early, too. I didn't sleep well last night. Work stress.

I can't wait until the weekend!!

Peace.

To my friends & family

Lest you think that I've only been non-responsive to your emails / myspace / comments / etc... my Homestudy agency just called *again*! She called me probably 3 times now in the past week, and I kept forgetting to call her back...plus, I knew we'd talk awhile! So, it *isn't* just you! hahahaha.

Really, I love my friends and family more than anything, and I do not mean to ignore anyone. I promise. When I get busy... I tend to stay in and conserve energy... or take care of the baby (these days). Please forgive me.

Little M is amazing. I just had to say that, 'cause I hadn't in awhile! Oh, and so are Maggi and Manna! :)

Peace... again.

Mama's Girl

Little M needed some extra Mommy time this weekend. She wasn't eating or napping well at daycare last week and they (and I) were concerned. So, we stayed in quite a bit and had some quality Mama Mia time. I could tell it helped after a couple of days. I can't wait until I have another 3 day weekend to spend with her. I'm going to try to spend every minute I can this week trying to show her that we're ok, even when she's in daycare all day. It is tough, because 8-9-10 hours is a long time for a baby to be away from her Mama! But it is a necessity. So, I'm going to try to get us through this!! :)

The weekend was really good. We played a lot and she really liked it when I put the "Sound of Music" on TV for us to watch. That girl loves music!!! haha. We also picked up her pics from her 11 month sitting. They are great. Sis is going to scan them in and I'll post a couple (maybe this weekend??).

Work is getting a little better. I'm tired, though. It's tough being someone 'only one', but it is still amazing. She's wonderful and I wouldn't change a second of it.

Peace.