What a difference

What a difference a week makes. I got a new boss this week. Thank God. I just didn't think I could take one more day with the other one the way things were. Things have gotten a little better this week. So far.

Little M was off schedule all week. She didn't get her naps in again, at daycare. Well, except about an hour (50 min), or so. She seemed a bit distant this week (not as much eye contact and definitely more cranky...which she is usually never). I imagine it is mostly due to the being off schedule. I'm really hoping this weekend gets us back on track.

So, back to her birthday. People showed up about 2pm. Before that, I tried to get the house ready (for several days, actually). I ended up laying down for about an hour before Ellen came over because I had *yet another* raging headache. I took some migraine meds and thankfully it went away.

Sis was a bit late, but it was 'cause she went to get our grandmother! That was very cool. My brother also came. It was the first time he'd ever been to my house. So, that was pretty great, too. We just hung out and had snacks until about 4pm and then I opened Little M's presents. People wrote some fantastic tips and ideas for 'mommyhood'. Ellen had them put their ideas on a piece of paper and share them with me. So, I read them out loud. It was great.

Then came the cake!! Well, I imagine you saw the pics. :) That was just Awesome! And I'm so glad my brother took the pics. I can't wait to print them off and keep them for her! It was a really good thing to get her her own cake. That way she could just go at it and everyone else could have some of the big cake. Overall, it was a fantastic day! I couldn't have asked for better. And I know Little M had a great time!

So, let's hope this weekend gets us back on track.

Peace.

Can you be in love with a tooth brush?

Seriously... my friend Joe got me this awesome toothbrush that is electric. It is the Oralb 8850 or something like that. OMG it is fantastic! I can't believe how much I like it!!! hahaha.

So, Mia's actual birthday was kind of a non-event... we were both exhausted. But Sunday more than made up for it!! She got the most wonderful stuff ever. My friends and family rock! I counted last night (while trying to go to sleep) how many people were here... and with Little M and I, it was 35! 33 people came. My guess was 20-25, or even less. We had such a great time.

I'll try to write about it more tomorrow.

Peace.

Big Birthday BASH

Little M turns ONE tomorrow!!!! We had a party today, as a welcome home / shower / 1st bday party. It was great. Here are the pics....

Surprise!!

This one goes out to two very special bloggy friends. You are So wonderful...you know who I'm speaking of, right? Kris and Tom. Really. I thought the package I got yesterday was something I ordered and when I went to open it (without looking at the return address, go figure!), it was from YOU!!! OMG. The bag and bracelet are just so darn cute. I can't wait to use it (and will fill it tonight, hehe). It is beautiful. Really. It really lifted my spirits (after feeling like out here alone). I can not express how much it meant to me.

I wish you both could be here to celebrate Sugar Plum's 1st birthday with me!! (if the bracelet is for her, she's gonna have to wait to wear it... 'cause it fits Mama!!! hehehe) I might even have it engraved with both our names, 'cause that was just very cool. (it is on my arm, as i write!)

I sort of had my own therapy shopping thing today... got Buttercup a couple of things for her birthday, including a couple new dresses and outfit. :) I Promise to post pics as soon as I can!!!

Thank you all for being so encouraging today, too. I'm still quite bummed, in general, but I'm trying to get out of it.

Peace.

Did you get her from a Foreign Country

Um... yeah. Does it matter? That was a question asked of me last night... did you get her from a foreign country. hm. oh well. i knew that was coming, right? it isn't a big deal, but it just strikes me as odd. Something that seems so normal to me, yet is always questioned...

Anyhow, I am so very cranky today. I've been thinking of writing for hours now, but if I would have written earlier it would have begun with a lot of 'f' words.

First, I couldn't sleep last night. Ok, what is new? (same goes for my being cranky, I realize.) I wish I could say that was all it was. Nope. Work really sucked today. There's so much I want to say, but I'm not going to.

I will say that I am very disappointed in people and I just feel like there are so many liars out there. People who really don't give a shit. People you think do, don't. I feel very alone. I believe God gave me Mia to not be alone. But one day... she'll leave me too. (yes, poor pity me) What was I thinking. (ok, besides the happy stuff that she's amazing...)

I'm pretty upset with my family right now. No, not Sis or Dad... some of the others. None are coming to Little M's party (for sure)...and that really makes me sad. Oh well. Par for the course. I guess it is too damn far to drive an hour to see her (us), as usual. You ask my sister how frustrated this makes me sometimes with our own relationship (when I do all the driving)... but she's been wonderful this year and she really loves Little M. I miss Sis and can't wait to see her this weekend. I almost called her today to beg her to come down NOW, but she's got stuff going on.

Do not worry. Do not be afraid. Easier said than done some days.

Peace.