So, things are a snad better at work today. I at least met with the boss and told him my side of things and my feelings about what's been going on. Who knows if it will help. But I tried.
As for personally... well, Sis got terrible news today. That stupid counselor thinks Jake should have custody. WTF? He's an alcoholic. Well known fact.... 2 DUI's in one year isn't enough proof?!!! She's an idiot. And Sis is VERY upset about it. I hope she doesn't give up. She needs to fight this.
Little M is feeling a bit better. I've got to go get her some more cold weather stuff... boy, did it get cold over the past couple of days!!
PS. I didn't mean that I should have done something differently than what I've done by creating my own little family. I love my family. But with it comes pressure. It's not so much about finding a Mr. It's more about the fears of not being able to do this alone. Fears that someday she won't want me as her Mom. Fears that I'll fail as a Mom. Fears that stem from my own childhood and my own Mother's disowning of us. I've started to really take this little person into my heart.... and not only do I want to provide for her and protect her... but I also want to make sure I don't screw something up where she hates me later. So, there. I said it.
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