If you know me at all, I get restless sometimes. I have a tendency to go, go, go. Yes, my life has changed. Yes, I'm in the midst of it. Yes, I get a bit discouraged sometimes by that and others I'm just ecstatic (no, I'm not bipolar... just have a lot of energy, some say!!).
So, here's the deal. I get restless when something big has happened. Like after a marathon. What is my next race is the first question I always ask. I'm doing the same thing now. People call me crazy. Really, my family and friends tell me to slow down. I do too much. I can't do it all.
BUT. Here I go again. I'm not overly happy with the work situation right now, and that isn't helping. I decided to start preparing for a fall half marathon and a full. But that doesn't seem to want to quench this restlessness. So, I'm considering continuing my education. I'm thinking of doing an MBA program online. But I'm not sure how credible they are. I don't want to be away from my Sugar Plum for too long, so going to class seems a bit out of the question.
Part of it might be knowing my friend got married today. CONGRATULATIONS, I say!! Woohoo!!! And I'm so happy for her. I have a baby. Life changes... we're going with it. But I feel like with this next chapter, there might be something more. So, I guess you can call me crazy. I'm going to try to figure out how to get un-restless. (I could always start the process to adopt #2, but I'm not that crazy yet, HAHA, I'm having TOO much fun with Sugar Plum).
Really, I love my little SP. She's just amazing. And the funny thing is, I say that every day. She was sitting by the door again today (waiting for Mama?) when I got there. Too cute. :) I even got a big smile. She made my day.
That's why it makes work stress seem trivial. And important at the same time, because, well, frankly, I don't feel like tolerating being treated like a 2nd class citizen because I have a child, or because I'm a woman, any more. There, I said it. Bah Humbug.
Whine, whine, whine......that's what I feel like doing tonight. I know it is just my getting back to work and on a schedule... but I'm restless. What more can I say?
PS. I'm trying to figure out what to call my little dumpling here, because I'd like to try to keep a modicum of anonymity (ha, big words...didn't know i had it in me, did ya?! hehe). I don't think I've done a very good job so far. So, I will likely use different 'fun names' until I pick one for sure. :)
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